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Evaluation 31.12.24

and also adding stuff afterwards

What i did

• take on freeshop/kleinanzeigen responsibility
• small building stuff
• foodsaving/caring/preparing/sharing
• bassment
• talk to people about problematic behaviour
• started to get into sysadmin stuff
• establish new orders, rearranging

What i want to do

• continue on the digital freeshop solution
• establish agency for me and others (credits for reminding me of that term to doug)

• continue working on governance as university project

What has been hard for me

• wanting to do too much stuff at the same time and ignore my capacities
• not being able to get away from people easily, be it kids or grownups
• sleep
  • not having proper routine
  • not having a main sleeping place
• talking about possible smallish changes and not doing shit afterwards

What has been fun for me

• caring less about wearing different clothes
• adjusting with the house
• spending quality time with people and getting closer to some

Reflection after the Evaluation

There are three positions in Kanthaus. Visitors, volunteers, members. I'm a volunteer now.

After spending the previous months at Kanthaus as a visitor, I decided I want to become a volunteer, feeling quite confident about getting accepted.

In the last months I was quite active around the house, trying to make sense to some stuff I'd interpreted as pure chaos. Sometimes I turned chaos into other chaos, sometimes it turned out to be a good solution. Sometimes I had to accept that the chaos had to stay in place because solutions to it would require a bigger amount of coordination, reflection and willfulness.

People in Kanthaus seem to have learned to be cautious with their capacities. Even protective, when needed. It appears to be an important quality when living in a house with people coming and leaving. People who are working on a colourful bouquet of not always matching flowers. Or not even "working" at all, maybe doing the bare minimum of reproductive tasks. Every person has an indepedent life and the independency can lead to misunderstandings and bad feelings towards each other.

For quite some people the protection of the status quo is important. They want to feel at home. Want to know where they can find stuff. Want the muscle memory to do the work. And even if I may be annoyed from time to time, I think it's beautiful what people are doing here, which may be only possible through the status quo. Yes, people "profit" from upholding it. Whatever profiting means around this house.

It just happens. I don't plan to interfere with that, rather support it and try to get more people into this profiting state.

Kanthaus is an exclusive house. An exclusive project. Quite sure unhealthy for some.

I just realized the exclusionary dynamics are to multifaceted to write down right now. Lots of things come to my mind but they are too interconnected and intersected in order to halfheartedly mention them here. Probably it's easier to ask each individual what's necessary to feeling included?

Anyway. I'm in this now. And I want to ask myself how I want to act out of this exclusive safety.

1. I want to reduce thresholds for people feeling included and KH being less exclusionary. This should not noticeably reduce the feeling of safety for people.
2. Have Rahel Jaeggis definition of Ideologiekritik in mind
3. These are the purposes of the house (as written in the constitution which I'm currently not allowed to vote on)

   To promote sharing and reduce waste.
   To develop free and open-source software.
   To pursue social-ecological transformation.
   To provide and connect public and common resources.
   To give what we can, take what need and facilitate others to do the same.
   To generally have a jolly good time.

How do the purposes resonate with me?

• To promote sharing and reduce waste.
  • I like to use waste. I like to promote sharing. I like to maintain shared stuff.
• To develop free and open-source software.
  • I use FLOSS increasingly
  • I plan to get a bit more tech-savvy. I am actually thinking about developing, but I'm more interested in discovering and using what's there already. Probably that's what I feel better with.
• To pursue social-ecological transformation.
  • count me in
  • not too sure how exactly
• To provide and connect public and common resources.
  • sounds most interesting for me and also I see so much potential in this point
• To give what we can, take what need and facilitate others to do the same.
  • Rather give what we want and take what we can, eh?
• To generally have a jolly good time.
  • Yes but can we combine that with getting stuff done? seems inefffecient elseways.